I miss the flash of your stained yellow teeth,
that flawed porcelain gate
and a fortress for my mouth.
I miss you
and the unyielding sparkle in your obsidian eyes
as you cackle and shrug me from your universe.
I miss when you held me
in your sweltering cocoon
amidst bitter, bourbon-chilled Saturday nights.
I miss when you exhaled
into my coffee-creamed neck,
those childish palms painting portraits on my back.
and I imagine my naked, helpless body
and you, naked and vulnerable, I imagine
Would become part of me too, a craving
as we cringe and kiss
and I fucking weep
muted joyful tears,
dampening your feverish cheeks
and I imagine our last breath
Drawn, exhaled, and evaporated from the grasp of
This stupid memory.