did you think i was sleeping

deconstructing an all-nighter

Source: Manuel Meurisse from Unsplash

Did you think
I was sleeping
when you confessed you were afraid I would leave

Do you know
I leave the porch light off
when it snows for at least two days

Do you know
I leave the peppers out of our
omelettes, I watched you pick them last time

Do you know
I clean the kitchen counter
ev’ry time you make our pour overs

Do you know
I draft my poems on copy paper
instead of spiral notebooks

Do you know
I park my car one block
from our place, I need more time to think

Did you know
I bought cigarettes last Thursday
You know I don’t smoke, but I want to

Do you know
I wait to brush and floss
five minutes after you’ve done so

Did you know
I stopped buying my favorite gin
when we stopped making each other’s drinks